nothingness in words

am not sure if am the only writer whose mind at time goes blank.

i hold the pen on paper and it feels like i just walked into class for the first time and asked to write a composition or should i say essay..

in the height of haitis devastation,bad politics,breaking relationships commencing relationships i still have no topical writing.

but ha ha ha here i am behind this desktop writing about nothing...am perhaps one of the most talkative you might ever meet that is if you do...i talk even when am alone,i make my pillows and teddy bears listen to me,i role play interviews.i give speches in my 'award wining ceremonies'my personal grammies and b.e.t's i even shed tears..by now you are probably laughing or retreating to look at my picture and confirm my sanity.in teh midst of my insanitry i believe in wakin gup to my dream..by now perhaps one of you reading is going 'yeah right' but watch this space

i am afraid of the words i just wrote above..
afraid that five,ten years from now ei will still be saying the same words
afraid that my kids will be born and read thsi blog and still find me saying them
afraid taht i will fall into a state of depression and hopelessness when all this doesnt come true...

but who am i?God has my destiny and since i trust in Him al let HIm read this and probably erase my fears......