another random piece

today,
i looked back
as soon as i finished high school i began working as an actress
as well as helping at my dads shop.
my first dates as a free bird,away form parental monitory and curfew were in coffee houses
perhaps because the men i met were grown and working

a tad later i joined university and now my dates were in th school cafeteria and from past colleagues in coffee house or should i say older clubs\joints

a few days back i went to meet my friends at a fast food joint.steers.
and as i sat there ans stared at people alienation crept in
a lady asked me my age and was shocked that i was younger than she but i was so alienated and looked misplaced..i stared at a few more people who looked my peers and couldn't help but think of them as immature

thats when it hit me,thats when the word of my sister come rushing in,
i missed a stage in my life.
a stage of idling in city joints checking men out and window shopping
getting hit on with corny lines,
he he alot i missed between completing school and joining university.
whose fault was it?
i again realized that never did i go through the jumping a fence to go for rave
ha ha the memories of things i saw my sisters did

people say that life stages are inevitable
that scary,
when will that stage come?
will it embarrass me?
shivers....

but then again it occurred to me
age is nothing but a number
its not how long u've lived but how long and deep you have lived
its not how long u've been seeing the light of day or crossing roads
its the technique and achievement by he time the sun goes down

and i conclude i grew too fast
i look back,front
smile and say
take me as i am or leave me as you found me!!!!!!